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Hey, if you are reading my blog. So being 17 and in college IBS couldn't have picked a more perfect time; y'know just when you are at the height of your teenage years, supposedly having fun, being confused about who you are, as if we don't have enough isses to deal with. Constanly anxious and stressed, my body is responding reflexivily to them, that can be in the form of constipation, diarrhea, gas. Everything is horrible, my worst culprit seems to be gas, sometmes I don't even realise I am doing it. It is so humilating! I won't take the bus because I become claustrophobic, hate being in class in silence makes me really panicky, meeting new people, the list never ends. I was already a bit nervous but with the added weight of unkown ibs flare ups, I am out of control, worrying about everything. I don't want to take anti depressants etc because, I believe there has to be a better way around this. A cute guy walks across my eyeline and looks at me, bad reactions- nerves would have just been okay. People talk about me behind my back, instead of asking me what's wrong with me, I would be extremely embarrassed but I would be truthful. Things aren't helped by a 'great' staff body, who makes jokes about you. I hardly went to college last year and it was my first year, I have never really ever skipped education, but the looks and whispers became too much. Despite making it in less than 25% of the time I made it out the year with some c's, which I think is brillant-being average despite low attendance. However, my mind found that voice which said, if you can achieve this without barely turning up, imagine what you could of if you did. I really want to go to university, but I need to be amazing this year, I know I am capable, but I don't know if my mind and body are. Considering taking a year off to control the Ibs more and be calmer, happier, but the parents don't buy that ibs is real, 'it's all in your head' well yes, but continue and risk more damage or realise I need some time. If I ever go to university, I want to study journalism, I love the subject, but it is a stresful job, not eating right, nerve racking suituations constantly- would I be able to handle it? I don't know. I am sick of being ruled by Ibs, I just want to feel the right nerves and shyness, withoutmy body failing me.