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I had to force myself into bed last night some time around 2-4am and woke up at first around 9am and had the worst stomach ache and I felt nauseated, so I went back to sleep but it didn't really feel like I rested, just like I laid in bed for a while. When I finally got out of bed, it felt like I either just got over being sick, or I was about to get sick and all day I just felt off but I think my body knew I was stressed and didn't quite know how to make me realize it.
I have been really stressed with relationships, work, money, my health, school, taxes, sleep..the list goes on and on. Well I was trying to do my taxes and I am terrible with numbers and I was doing this by myself, when everything felt like it crashed around me. So, I decided to take a break to try to push aside this massive crash of feelings and pain that came out of no where. So I cleaned and made food, which calmed me down a bit, but of course, I had to try to finish my tax stuff. Anyway its hard. I can't do it alone. So I txt my ex who is very insensitive and doesn't understand 1)basic human feelings and 2)how my feelings affects my stomach. So that massive wave of emotions, just came back and was worse, but oddly enough, I am so used to this pain, it actually makes my body feel better. My emotions are insane and I mean I don't feel good, but I can handle this pain more than the weird feeling I had all day. Can your body adapt to pain?
So my body knew what was going on. I just like to suppress my feelings until one day, I explode. I realized that I need some prescribed help. I need to call my dr tomorrow bc I have gotten these random crashes of feelings before and it feels like for no reason. So hopefully, she can give me an antidepressant as well as some pain killers and stuff for my nausea bc dramamine and advil will only do so much.
I need to document when this happens, but it is so fast and so devastating that all I think about is how badly I want it to be over.
One day it will be
I have been really stressed with relationships, work, money, my health, school, taxes, sleep..the list goes on and on. Well I was trying to do my taxes and I am terrible with numbers and I was doing this by myself, when everything felt like it crashed around me. So, I decided to take a break to try to push aside this massive crash of feelings and pain that came out of no where. So I cleaned and made food, which calmed me down a bit, but of course, I had to try to finish my tax stuff. Anyway its hard. I can't do it alone. So I txt my ex who is very insensitive and doesn't understand 1)basic human feelings and 2)how my feelings affects my stomach. So that massive wave of emotions, just came back and was worse, but oddly enough, I am so used to this pain, it actually makes my body feel better. My emotions are insane and I mean I don't feel good, but I can handle this pain more than the weird feeling I had all day. Can your body adapt to pain?
So my body knew what was going on. I just like to suppress my feelings until one day, I explode. I realized that I need some prescribed help. I need to call my dr tomorrow bc I have gotten these random crashes of feelings before and it feels like for no reason. So hopefully, she can give me an antidepressant as well as some pain killers and stuff for my nausea bc dramamine and advil will only do so much.
I need to document when this happens, but it is so fast and so devastating that all I think about is how badly I want it to be over.
One day it will be
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Yes, your body can and will get use to the pain. It just recently stopped for me. Now my body gets in to a bit of a panic mode when it doesn't have intestinal pain. Your body learns to read the intestinal pain as functionabillity. Even though everything is functioning correctly your mind goes there is something wrong here because this no longer exist. Good observational and self conclusionary skills.
sick2much,
11 February 2012 - 06:40 PM
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