just a regular night

should i eat or should i not eat? should i eat or should i not eat? should...ill spare you. but thats the kind of intelligent conversation im having with random internal organs right now. if i dont eat ill be free to socialize and enjoy next couple of hours. but ill be hungry and it isnt very healthy. if i do eat...i wont get too graphic.

i did spend about a year and a 1/2 (recently) eating just enough to survive when my schedule didnt leave room for antisocial brakes. when i look at pictures of myself from then it scares me. im a thin girl usually but then i was all skeleton. my cheekbones stuck out, my eyes where too large and i was very pale. i dont ever want to go back to that kind of stage. i try to fit at least one good meal into every day.

besides im trying out women’s life force multiple for the first time today. i read on some thread here that it helped some people with ibs-c. i cant quite do much assessing to see if its working or not if i dont eat anything.
so.....

im on my way to raid the fridge. so much for cognitive dissonance.