At 16 I acquired Crohns Disease, became totally obstructed, and had surgery to remove 4 feet of my small intestine. I suffered with diarrhea and blood in my stools everyday for almost 30 years.

My skin has become ultra sensitive, so I can wear almost no clothes without breaking out and having my skin burning. I have to take a multiple enzyme pill everyday or my skin burns all over no matter what clothes I wear. I have to use special shampoo or my head breaks out with sores and massive dandruff.

Then I acquired IBS constipation, which turns my life upside down further. It ends up I also have a rectal prolapse from straining, and can't seem to make a bowel movement without taking an enema everyday. I'm on Medicaid, and have to travel a 165 miles just to see a GI doctor that tells me he can't do anything for me. (My next appointment with him in in January in the middle of winter)

It's hard for me to sleep, as I have irritation on different parts of my body where ever I lay. I also have acid reflux, and can't lay down for 8 hours after having eaten anything. My joints ache all over when I do lay down, further compounding the problem of sleeping.

I can't work, and have to live with my elderly parents. I have no money, no girl, and basically no friends. I don't collect disability or get any government hand outs.

My parents are in debt, and just get by, I am always depressed, and don't see a future for myself, I am 45 years old, and feel like I'm 85.

I feel like I have nothing to live for....

By: sirjohn