Posted 29 January 2014 - 02:42 AM
Hi, first of all forgive my horrible english, it's not my first language.
Hi, I'm 20 years old and I've been suffering IBS since...2006. I believe it all started when I got the terrible news of my grandma's dead, since that, my health went downhill. I first suffered from anorexia nervosa, but I recovered. My doctor told me that my symptoms were an 'after effects' of recovering from anorexia. I hate getting sick....at first I thought my symptoms were all in my head, I thought I was becoming hypochondriac. I was soo soo afraid of eating cause I thought I was going to get pain and nauseas, I HATE nauseas, I hate vomiting. Years passed, thinking that maybe it was part of my anorexia recovery...but the symptoms never stopped. I used to be really chubby...now I'm bones. My fear of eating a lot has been getting worse. I eat really small things and then I sit there waiting for the IBS symptoms to come. I barely go out with friends cause I'm afraid I'm going to end up going to the bathroom a lot of get worse. I couldn't go on with college. I was studying Theater, I love acting...but the pains, nauseas, bloating and the constant going to the bathroom was affecting me A LOT. It didn't help the fact that I started getting panic attacks whenever I felt those typical "ibs attacks" (that leave you sweating in the bathroom and shaking) My brother and sister started saying that I was being overdramatic about my symptoms, that I was causing them cause I was becoming hypochondriac. I even started to believe it too, I thought I was going hypochondriac. I couldn't go on with Theater cause explaining to the prof that I had a condition was embarrassing me . I took a short career in photography, I recently finish it (Won't go to graduation) I've had jobs that I had to quit cause of the symptoms. Recently went to the doc....finally got diagnose with it. At first I was relief that I finally knew I wasn't going "insane" but then I felt alone. Today I write this from the living room cause I haven't been able to sleep thanks to the nauseas, and thinking "I can't be the only one like this" and I started searching around...and I'm glad i FOUND THIS PLACE. I guess you people understand how hard its to explain what you have to your friends or professors without feeling a horrible wave of embarrassment. How hard its to go on a date with someone and getting so nervous of feeling sick that you get extremely sick and have to cancel it . How hard its to concentrate in a LONG CLASS and feeling like your stomach and everything is twisting inside.
I'm glad i FOUND THIS PLACE.
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Posted 02 February 2014 - 05:33 AM
It has been 15 years now that I go to bed and wake up with what doctors call a "nervous stomach", so the slightest stress makes me go to wc. And guess what causes the slightest stress, the idea of "will I have to go to wc if I go out now, or will they have a wc where I' m going. The "problem" has made me drop out of 3 high schools just cause I couldn't sit through lectures, jobs, relationships, friends, life that is considered normal, all that is affected. At the moment I'm happily married, but just to get through the wedding day I avoided food for 2 days just to avoid any problems. So the life continues on day to day basis, but it's not easy, and trust me- going to work that requires you to take 2 buses and drive to the middle of nowhere doesnt help.
But these forums and the stories help, atleast we are not alone in these health problems, and sometimes even a little sympathy helps.