On the verge of committing suicide .
Posted 01 March 2016 - 11:24 PM
Sorry for posting this again , but I`m basically sharing my story ( again ) except this time with more details. I have been dealing with stress / social anxiety related excessive gas for two years. It only happens when I`m in social situations such as school. I can NOT smell the farts but I know others can. I also did a google search and found a guy with pretty much the same problem , he wrote that he also has a condition where his pee dribbles after using the toilet , I have this problem too. My life is HELL , I`ve tried Pepto Bisimol and Gas X and just ended up wasting money. My life blows and I seriously feel like I should just kill myself instead of having to go to school each and everyday and be made fun of and excluded and bullied . Ugh I hate my life , I hate my classmates and I hate pretty much everything. I live a boring life with no friends at all , let me repeat that NO FRIENDS AT ALL , I am a lonely piece of **** who will never succeed in life. I have literally nothing at all to live for. I don`t believe in God but if he does exist then I pray for me living a normal life or just me dying. I honestly don`t think anyone will miss me when I`m gone. Once I came late for class and everyone was talking and happy until I came in then everyone is just quite. I hate being humiliated. I swear on everything holy that I would rather be dead then having to live this horrible , disgusting life. And yes I have talked to the doctor although I didn`t give much detail , and not with a specialist so maybe someone on this forum who has more knowledge can help me , she told me to take Gas X which did`nt help at all , in fact it made it worse. There is not a single day I don`t think about ending it all . I want to rid myself of my misery and allow others to be happy die. I want to die , I fantasize being diagnosed with a deadly disease , I fantasize being murdered. I am way over my tolerance point , there is no way I`m going to deal with this an longer. I need to kill this before it kills me , trust me everyday I feel helpless , like I`m in a jail. I hate this so much , I hate it more then anything. You know when everyone hates you it sucks but when you hate yourself it sucks even more. I just freaking farted while typing that line , URGGG I am sooooooooo tired of this .
Posted 02 March 2016 - 02:55 AM
High School sucks, but the thing about it is, it doesn't last forever. I think it would be remiss to make a final decision based off how shitty hs is. I understand the frustration you are feeling, I am not new to debilitating conditions. Have you tried changing your diet to see if eliminating foods makes a difference. I have had decent success with the low FODMAP diet. If you dont want to go that far look up online what foods cause gas and cut those out. Also have you talked to a GI specialist. There might be a really simple fix, you just dont have enough information yet.
I think you have to give your life a real try before you give up.
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Posted 02 March 2016 - 06:08 AM
Anyway - I hope this helps and people in high school can be horrible. Reach out to people in this forum - I've developed a few great friendships from meeting people on here. We're here for you!!!!!!
Posted 02 March 2016 - 05:33 PM
Try a very simple diet of just meat, fish, vegetables and a few fruits. This is probably the best diet for IBS if you can tolerate the veges and if your gut isn't too inflamed. For me the constant gas was from incomplete evacuation and I found that if I ate certain foods one day I wasn't able to fully go the next day, which led to leaky gas. The worst foods for me are starchy foods, all grains, legumes like baked beans. Lectins and food opioids in grains like wheat and rice, legumes, nuts, white potatoes and dairy can act to paralyse the colon. Ideally we should all be just going once a day and producing one long, unbroken BM - not an hours-long explosive session with a ton of gas. I'm still not up to that stage yet, but the BMs are definitely better formed and this diet is the best so far:
breakfast: 2 fried eggs, 2 bacon shortcuts, fried tomato or banana
lunch: salad vegetables like carrot, cucumber, lettuce, (I also have olives & gherkins but these are higher in fibre. I can tolerate the fibre in salad very well. If you don't, have the same cooked veges as your dinner), fatty meat like salami or roast chicken with skin on
dinner: meat or fish with cooked green beans, pumpkin, cooked carrots (you can try mashed sweet potato or corn but these veges seem to be the safest for me)
I also have a couple of teaspoons of raw honey (get this from an apiary).
If you get sugar cravings a small amount of chocolate should be OK. I can tolerate chocolate and fruits like banana and pineapple but don't have too many fruits.
My Wordpress blog: http://ibsnaturalcure.wordpress.com
Posted 02 March 2016 - 05:53 PM
Occasional charcoal cap away from supplements. Drink 8-10 cups of water/day, to keep things moving before gas forms.
1/04/18: Pain's my main problem. IBS-D prone, but not with methylcellulose soluble non-gassy caplets still, 2 before anything eaten. Also, 10C water/day (Have to if taking fiber supplement and soluble foods). Frequent, small and well chewed meals. No more salads, seeds or peel, whole grains, raw vegetables STILL. Have used in the past antispasmotics, low dose tricyclic anti-depressent (for ibs and inflammation)/both VERY drying even at low amounts and disorienting, CBD oil and IBgard's encapsulated peppermint (works better than older type enteric peppermint). Have occasional inflammation in illium at end of small intestine, but it was not crohns. Activated charcoal when needed for flatulence, simethicone only works on upper stomach area for upper gas (burping) right away btw, not flatulence at end of g.i. track. Tried Kratom, good but itchy and didn't prevent a flare up from eating a wrong foods. Raising dosage didn't kick down inflammation. Now back to being certified for (legally available here) medical high CBD Cannabis/Marijuana RSO (thick oil form), more expensive. I needed more anti-inflammitory help from the THC in regular cannabis oil, instead of just CBD oil.
Posted 04 March 2016 - 11:22 PM
Posted 05 March 2016 - 09:18 AM
Oh don't give up!! I know it's hard we are all feeling this way too. Basically my neighbors hate me because my smells lingers to their house and they hate it. But please don't give up. Don't let other interfere with your emotion. It's hard but it will get better one day. If you don't mind we can chat if you want to share some feelings. But don't give up please.
Yeah sure we can chat
Posted 05 March 2016 - 04:19 PM
Hey Kane the undertaker
Don't worry man we are as close as ever to finding a solution. Check tummyrumble posts for diet he has nailed it.
Also I'm doing biofeedback treatment because they found an animus(pelvic floor dysnergia) and rectal intussuception. I will soon let you know how it went and if it worked. I take psylium fiber everyday, glutamine supplements and cayenne peper capsule before a meal. Also you can get digestive enzyme suplements.
You will find many ways to reduce the smell and soon we will find how to be done with that problem. Don't forget there's people that are blind, paralyzed and worst, we have it bad but still not worth doing something stupid over this problem
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Posted 14 April 2016 - 10:48 PM
Kane, hope all is well with you.
Hang in there - I promise you have not exhausted all treatment options yet!
I can't imagine having to deal with what you're going through. Please call a suicide hotline if you feel down again. It looks like you are in Canada - here is a list of suicide hotline numbers to call if you ever feel suicidal.
Keep trying new diets and treatments and hang in there - you WILL find a cure. Life will get better!
I'm cured!!! My solution here. Try eliminating all grains and dairy.
Posted 12 May 2018 - 12:42 PM
Posted Today, 01:13 PM
I finally found the very inexpensive cure to my uncontrollable and very embarrassing condition. After spending thousands of dollars on doctors visiting, prescriptions, and trying different types of herbs, with no success. I accidentally discovered the cure when my daughter wouldn't eat her snack raisins. So, not letting them go to waste I eat them instead and notice that I've been having regular bowel movements, and such with no negative side effects. And notice that people wasn't standoffish, constantly rubbing their noses, and making rude remarks. Since then I've been eating them ever since, my symptoms went away 100%. I'm slowly getting over my fear of wondering if I smell bad when I'm around people. I don't see people rubbing their noses, and making rude remarks when I'm out in public. I hope that this forums will help others to over come their constant fear of suffering with their embarrassing condition as well. Good luck and eat plenty of healthy raisins. And start living life again.
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Posted 27 August 2018 - 10:38 AM
But school is over now, I didn't get the grades I knew I could with all the sick days I took, so I made a plan to go on independent study find the one spot people wanted to find on training days and go (often for free), I now own my ibs it's not all roses and sunshine and yes I still h ave those stop and let me off days... but I'm in my 30s and an infant teacher with a husband now trying for children... don't give in the jerks at school will only be there now you make your life choices after this...
my butt head of a big bro gave me a motto (he had fetal incontinence as a kid)
when you get a dull instrument like a spoon to over come a brick wall don't stop and quit over time you'll have beaten,broken and shaped the spoon into a pick now tear down that wall brick by satisfy brick.
Posted 03 September 2018 - 07:52 PM