Maybe the reason we all wound up together here on this online community is because we all share your sentiment Chicka! I too want to be loved, really really badly! And sadly, I am going through a break-up and having my first bad IBS flare since the turmoil between my boyfriend and I began. And guess what? IT SUCKS. My coping threshold, which normally is moderately bad anyway when it comes to gut symptoms, is now AWFUL and all I want to do is scream. Where is the man who I thought loved me? And, YES, amidst the pain and isolation Chicka I feel completely unlovable.
Here's the silver lining. Right now, I am struggling to love myself. The pain in my bowels is making it way too hard to be compassionate toward my inner spirit. But my inner spirit is still there. And it is able to love from afar. So, I am offering it to this online community. For every time you have hated your body and found yourself unlovable because your symptoms are clouding your judgement, hear this: there is an inner spirit within you that is bigger than your pain and shame. And there are inner spirits trapped in bodies struggling with IBS across the planet that want you to love yourself anyway. Or the very least, acknowledge that you are in every single way as lovable as the next person. You are lovable. More so, you are loved. Fight for it. Don't believe the lies your symptoms trick you into believing. Acknowledge your symptoms, but ride them out. You are bigger than they are.
I'm riding right alongside you.