My condition is mainly socially induced where I get anxious and pretty much work my bowels into a frenzy anytime something social or sponatenous happens. And its pretty much situations where I am not comfortable or don't know much about the place I will be going. A perfect example is a vacation. I've been dealing with this for 10 years and a few months ago I went back to my doctor looking for a different route. I started on an anti-depressant called Clorimipramine and for the most part, it only has bulked me up where I don't have bowel movements that often however I still get them more frequent in those given situations. However, in a way, it kinda helped my confidence and I've been slightly better the last few months.So yesterday my girlfriend randomly brings up taking a trip to Montreal in 3 weeks. I of course immediately feel the chills in my stomach and my reaction was far from enthusiastic. She knows my condition and is sort of sympathetic but not really that much because she really can't understand it. So today she asks me how I am doing and I tell her the truth that I got anxious thinking about it but I'm interested in trying. But her response was that she just wants to go by herself now because she doesn't want to deal with another one of my episodes since there are a bunch of her friends up there that she wants to meet up with and go out. After that comment, I just got up and walked away to go watch TV. It really got me depressed and really killed my confidence buzz. I haven't had an "episode" in a while and I'd hardly called them episodes. I just go to the bathroom 3-4 times before we go out some place so it takes me a little longer. Yeah, this was more venting that anything but I just don't know what to do. She knows my condition very well. We live together and have been together for many years. But I just feel like a drag on her sometimes because I know she wants to go adventure and my weak stomach gets me nervous. And I really want to go.