I have had panic disorder on and off for years. I seem to be going through a flare-up lately, maybe because I am going through perimenopause and my life has also been extremely stressful.I do not want to use too many drugs, I already have thyroid disease and diabetes and enough meds to take. They gave me the very lowest dose of Xanax and said to use them. I have not, except when flying.My problem is, I am really having that bathroom fear. What if there is no facility, what if I cant get to one, what if I cant find one etc.Today I was in the car with my hubby in a bank drive-up and really felt a panic coming on there.I definitely have the Mind/Gut connection going on. I do not get full-blown D, but I usually have to go a whole bunch right before I leave the house or when I am out in stores etc.Anyone have any suggestions as far as breaking this cycle? I dont have funds for physicians, thought I have an awfully nice medical assistant ob/Gyn who can probably really discuss this from a pre-menopause type of anxiety.I'm trying to practice breathing and I know I need to exercise more. Unfortunately, right now I have no vision in my left eye due to a diabetes problem and I cant get out much or do much.This is all kind of troubling because my husband doesnt know I am having attacks like I did in the car today. Then he gets upset with me, because he thinks I am acting funny.Thanks for any suggestions, sorry for rambling. This is the only group I ever ran into where people can relate to me.