Well I was doing good for about a month. My new doc put me on Vistaril. Then out of nowhere the past 4 days brought me to a break down today.Luckily my doc was on call today and I went and saw her. She said everything I was experienceing was my anxiety and then she gave me Librium. 5mg. to start with.I am so mad because these damn attacks were gone in my life till my mom died. Now they are back. I get so tired and I know when my husband gets home he will be upset. He gets so frustrated and so do I.My doc said Iam not crazy because at times I feel I am. I have been on most antidepressants and they all have way too many side effects for me. I react to everything. I can't go to therapy anymore because I reached my max for the year in June. I was seeing a grief councelor but we are done becuase group started again. I have been trying to keep myself busy. I even got that one hour a week job. Was ready to take on more and BOOM anxiety hits me. It also affects my bowel and I get diarrhea too which doesn't help me to leave home.I have been reading Self Help books again and I don't know if this helps or hurts. Sorry to rant but I have nowhere to go at this point and noone was in chat. Any good advise always welcome. Batty2 :fruit: