Okay,I am trying very hard not to fall into a deep depression episode (like the one I had last week/weekend).I am trying to be positive, calm and trying my damndest not to think about the pains that keep stabbing me in the back and in my side. I'm trying to brush them off thinking that they are from having anxiety induced IBS and from being overweight.I'm trying so hard right now not to fall off my two-day UP cycle. I am taking my doxepine before bed, eating ok and sleeping at least 9 hours each night.I am trying to reassure myself that the reason I have pain is because I suffer from IBS and from being overweight but the little devil inside my head tells me I have something sinnister. URGH, trying to fight him off and the more I fight w/ him the more my anxiety levels increase and I can begin to feel even more pain. This is a never-ending cycle. It's ridiculous. For maybe a day or two I will have "ok" days and then boom the devil is back to make my life a living hell.I am not a hypochondriac...I don't run to the doctor over every little ache and pain. However, I do have Generalized Anxiety Disorder because I get anxiety about health concerns. I do not run up insurance premiums to see the doctor over and over and over again. Then again, I think I am on the edge of becomming a hypochondriac.Can somebody please tell me if I am or if you experience the same type of anxiety?Symptomsa.)If I get an ache (especially under the right or left rib cage (Upper GI area) I cannot quit obsessing about it. I will look for hours on the internet to see what it is. I went to the doctor a few times and had some test ran but they came up negative.b.)Eventhough I've had tests ran I still don't think it's nothing so my anxiety and fears make me have IBS. IBS is horrible...gas, cramps, diahrrea, fatigue, weakness, back pain, acid refulx, etc.c.)Then I have depression because I'm convinced I'm dying.d.)I then will have this depression for at least two to three days. During this depression I can barely move and I have all kinds of weird pains.e.)Then something will turn around and I will have a couple of "ok" days and then the cycle starts all over again.I am at my witts end. Could I have anxiety, IBS and depression. Does gas really get trapped below your rib cage? I sometimes wonder if I have mood swings....that's what they feel like anyway. It's so hard to deal w/ this.I am seeing a therapist on June 7th. I am looking for some relief mentally and physically.Can being overweight and sitting at a PC all day working cause aches and pains in the back and sides?HELP!
