i read a book that really helped me a lot. it's by a guy named Richard Kale who beat an anxiety disorder without doctors or medication. the guy was so low at points that he ended up having to leave college and was suicidal at points. in the book he talks about what it took for him to get better. it's good to know that there is someone out there that has overcome the same problems that you have. i feel a lot more confident that i can get better. he's a really intelligent guy. he gives out his email with the book so people can talk to him. it's richard.e.kale###gmail.com. he's a really friendly guy. i talk with him regularly. the book is only $5. he has a day job, but spends a lot of time trying to help people with anxiety disorders. i suggest the book to anyone .he recieves hundreds of emails a day and returns them all.