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Hey Everyone,I am so scared that I have let my mental health get to out of control. I now suffer from brain fog and insomnia. I feel like I am loosing my grip on reality and that I am going crazy. My tinnitus and IBS are at thier worst and I am scared to death I may not get my normal self back again. I know I can not live this may much longer.I have taken steps to get help i.e. seen my GP, filled in a mental health plan and have an appointment to see a psychologist. I am hoping she will give me antidepressants (never thought id say that) and that she will be the answer to my problems. I dont know what else to do. I havent slept in about 2.5 months, I cry several times a day, I am behind in uni and will prob fail cause I cant concentrate and read properly. I cut myself and have suicidal thoughts nearly every day. I have confessed all these things to the GP, but with the way our health system works I only have two options. 1. wait for the psych appointment or 2. get admitted to hospital. The problem is i need the help of the second option but being admitted to hospital and having to defer uni would plumit me MUCH further into my depression.I have no idea how to help myself between now and when I start feeling better. I feel like I have taken all the steps I can to get help, but I am scared the help may not come fast enough and also that the help may not help at all. I am scared this brain fog and insomnia are perminate. I couldnt live that way.I dont know if im saying all this to hear about your stories and how you coped or if im crying out for help..... maybe its both. One very scared ans lost Poo Pea