I am now past the point of worrying that I sound immature or dramatic. I've been dealing with IBS since I was 15 years old and have now wasted 6 years of my life. I honestly can't do anything. The symptom that causes me the most concern is the loud gurgling noises that are constantly prevalent. This allows for no social life. I can't hang out with friends at their apartments, I can't go to the movies, I can't spend the night anywhere. I have to skip my classes some days or just get up and leave when people stare at me. I've never had a boyfriend because you can't imagine what it feels like laying in a bed with someone, making out, and experiencing these loud stomach noises. This is very hard to talk about and the people I have talked to insist on telling me this is all in my head or that I am the only one that notices these weird noises. But obviously if people stare at me and ask me what's wrong all the time, this isn't my mind playing tricks on me and I'm tired of hearing that. So I'm socially and academically messed up and of course I've even developed some psychological issues because of this. I've spent the last few years of my life avoiding people and hurting people who want to get close to me, which just leaves me feeling guilty and worthless. I'm scared about the future because if I have to keep living like this I won't have much of one. I honestly don't know if I can keep doing this. Some days I really just want to give up. Sometimes I wish I was dealing with something else, something that people could understand and sympathize with instead of laugh at or ignore. I just want to be normal. I just want to have a life. I know nobody on this forum can help and I know there's no cure for ibs. I guess I just needed to vent in an environment where, hopefully, other people can understand.