Whenever there is any stool in my rectum, my bowels spasm violently and I feel the urge to go but I cannot push the stool out. I admit that because of this I've been manually removing stool from my rectum for years, which makes the spasms worse, but the stool doesn't seem to come out any other way. Even when I'm not constipated and my rectum is full of mushy or hard stool, it won't come out and sometimes I have to continually remove it throughout the day and by the end of it just lots of mucous comes out and I end up taking Immodium to try to get some relief. Does anyone have any suggestions for strengthening the muscles or being able to push stool out? I think my body is used to having me remove the feces and won't do it on its own now and I don't want to use enemas because I don't want to make the spasms worse and the Immodium just leaves me constipated for days. I'm worried that I'm weakening my muscles and I'll end up incontinent or something, but my rectal muscles, ironically, seem like they're too tight to allow anything to get out. I just had a colonoscopy and GI tests a few weeks ago and their only suggestion was eat more fibre. Well, I haven't really been eating anything for 2 months and have lost a ton of weight, so I'm trying to retrain my body to accept food and to remove it properly. Any suggestions?