I am a 32 year old nurse and have been living with IBS ever since I can remember(first memory was at age six). I have been trying to find a DR all my life that can definitively diagnose me with IBS. Although I've been "diagnosed" with IBS, I've never been treated sufficiently nor taken seriously except by the latest one I've seen(and even he had never heard a case so severe, so I was then referred to a Pain Management Specialist after all other options/treatments exausted). I have tried everything and anything anyone can possibly suggest and have had all the tests done that a standard G.I. would check. The colonoscopy was not 100% because both physicians were unable to make it through the entire colon because of a "torturous colon." This has always left me wondering if they missed something. I have also heard of some type of test where you swallow a camera. Has anyone ever heard of this? Who performs it and where? I also no longer have insurance since I quit my job and am going back to school full-time. When I tried to purchase insurance I was denied due to pre-existing conditions.Just to put it lightly, I can relate to those who just want to die sometimes. I'm not sure that the word PAIN can even touch what I experience on a regular. Last night, just some symptoms I can recall are...-almost on the verge of unconsiousness from pain, nausea, and fear even though they happen all the time-hurting so bad I was lying on the bathroom floor and could not even scream-sweating perfusely enough to drench all my clothes and face soaking wet dripping sweat down my chin-face as white/blue as a ghost-(thank God my name does not appear because this one is so embarrasing....) fecal impacted type stool that when it comes out, it's not long until I then experience explosive diarrhea in labor-type pain escalating spurts until it is totally done-finally relief followed by the most dibilitating weakness that usually lasts at least a day or two until my next attackLet me first say that I am almost Vegan now(started this diet about 4 years ago and attacks are a little less frequent than they used to be)in that I do not eat, beef, pork, or dairy(mainly due to food-rast testing helped me to discover these food allergies I have). If i do have any dairy it is very little and a rare occurance. Belladonna(spell?)... don't even bother if your symptoms are like the above. Not to take any of my advice literally, as I am no doctor, but for me, anti-spasmotics just slowed down the process and pain lasted hours longer until I was able to have a bowel movement. Antidepressants.. nope. I won't even bother listing everything. One thing I can tell you is one day I discovered the effects of Ritilin on my IBS. This speeds up motility and thus I would take Tylenol and Ritilin and if taken on time, the process would speed up with less pain and if I was really lucky.. completely stop it. Alot of times I would cut it in half and put half under my tongue to absorb more quickly. Few problems with this... I already take it for a sleep disorder, so if I wake up in the middle of the night and take one I am not going back to sleep!!! Not to mention, usually the amount that would be effective usually causes that annoying "jittery" feeling. And lastly, it doesn't always work... especially when I wake up from them in the middle of the night after it is too far into the attack. Another med (OTC) that SOMETIMES HELPS but does not get rid of the attack is ALKA-SELTZER GOLD(no aspirin... just antacid and electrolytes-and not similar to any other alka product). Last but not least(AND PLEASE DON'T LECTURE ME ON ADDICTION OR COLON PAIN CAUSED BY OPIOD/NARCOTICS...thank you), Lorcet, Darvocet, and other pain killers.... only thing effective for me but cannot take while at work of course. I usually don't have regular bowel movements bcuz of my "IBS" and none of these make it any worse. I JUST GET THE RELIEF I NEED!!! Only problem with narcotics is listed above and doctors are very reluctant to prescribe. Occasionally, even these don't make the cut in time for pain and ER is not an option for the type of pain I experience most of the time. I have gone before when the pain sustained and was unable to go to the bathroom and waited in a ER for hours before getting an injection of Demerol or Morphine....THEN WHAT??? Only more expensive deductibles and bills and so much pain is endured beforehand. Only reason I have been able to live a life with half the quality I do is because of the pills above. And unfortunately I have other painful conditions in which is the reason I am prescribed them in the first place. I have two children, one of which is 19months and I can barely take care of myself when I have these flare-ups.... I'm desperate for answers and I just wish that some doctors could realize just how severe the pain is. The only time I can look forward to eating is when I have a pain pill in hand.... and when I don't, I do not eat much. I weigh little to nothing and I want to be able to eat without worrying... I want to know that when I get my degree I won't have to worry about abandoning my patients to run to the bathroom... let alone the hours of pain leading up to that. I'm afraid I am one day going to die of this. I am afraid I will never live a normal life. I'm afraid of just the next day coming because I know I am probably due for the next attack. I can't live like this anymore! I feel for any of you that deal with anything close to this. I have dealt with embarrassment all my life as a secondary to missing out on so many special occasions due to sitting in a bathroom in excrutiating pain!!!!!!!!!!! I wish someone could help me.