Dilaudid I've read many posts of people wishing their doctor would prescribe pain killers to cope with bad days.I know I need it some days - I resisted taking it for the last 2 years. I didn't even ask for it. The ER recommended asking my doc for the fentynal patch again (I was on it for a year and I've been off it for about 10 months), but my doctor insisted that I need something stronger - so Dilaudid is my last resort.I know most people would give their right arm to have a doctor take their pain so seriously, but its too easy with some doctors to get whatever you want, and a lot of what you don't.So I sit here looking at the unopened bottle, suffering and wondering "what if...." I'm 39, the kids are leaving the nest, instead of beginning the rest of my life, all I can think is that I've reached the end of the line - after Dilaudid there is no where else to go.Pain killers like this don't just provide relief, they steal hope, when a doctor gives you this, he is openly and forcefully admitting there is nothing left that can be done for you.Be careful what you wish for.......