Ahh...Bless your heart.

I am very familiar with anxiety and all that goes with in. I have fought anxiety and depression my whole life.I had an unfortunately traumatic childhood, but kept on ticking. I believed "them", when they said, " Oh, everybody gets depressed sometimes". " It's all a matter of mind over matter", they said.Well, things life hands us, can sometimes become too much for even the most intelligent, tough, never give up type of person. I ended up finally being diagnosed with Graves' disease. That is when we get an autoimmune disease that causes our thyroid to over work.This causes too much adrenalin 24 hours a day, with no break. Talk about anxiety !So, come to find out, I have been subclinical hyper most of my life. My anxiety and depression were NOT the same as all those other people told me was normal. The thyroid hormones, when they are too low or too high, cause a chemical imbalance in the brain.So now I finally understand the difference. Some of us do truly benefit from medications such as this. It changes those brain chemicals, and brings us back to how those other people assume everybody feels.We are not weak, and looking for an easy way out, or a crutch. We only want an even playing field. We want to know what it feels like to be normal.If you should ever have anyone say cruel things to you, because of using an antidepressant, simply think to yourself, how lucky they are, that they do not understand... and probably never will.I am so happy I noticed your question here. I see there have been no other replies.When I registered, I set the button to allow private messages... so if you ever need me, please feel free to write directly to me that way.These first two months are not easy.But then, slowly and when your not aware, things start to change. Somewhere around three months, you will start to wonder how in the world you managed so well before. Pat yourself on the back for a job well done, under very tough circumstances.When I first started the Effexor XR, the third day was the biggie. It was like some bizarre acid trip. At least from what the movies portray an acid trip as being.At about 7 days, I began being very tired. This continued, in varying degrees, with much of that time spend feeling like I was in a drug induced stupor.But I had to trust my doctor this one time, and the Effexor site.I stuck it out, with the hope that things would change.At two months, it all did change. So do consider staying the course, and not jumping off the trial too soon. Anything before at least three months, is really not how things are going to be.Also be aware, this drug takes a long time to wean off of. So if that is a consideration, than a different drug may be more appropriate. It all depends on the individual.I was in a very serious depression at the time I started this drug, and knew ahead of time, that if I should choose to stop the drug, it would probably take several months of weaning, and there would be some side effects. I chose to save my life now, and accept the future of weaning, when and if the time should come.I believe as long as we know ahead of time, and have the power in our own hands to take this 'risk'... then when the time comes to quite, it will be so much easier. The people I have seen have terrible withdrawals, were dropped down to fast, and had no idea what was going to happen.Much like your panic this morning . Not knowing is terrifying, and that alone causes the panic to escalate, to a point that causes us to doubt our own sanity. When all along , learning these things ahead of time, is the only thing we need.Then as a "spell"
comes along, we can focus on safe thoughts and wait while it passes. Knowing it is "normal", is the one thing we must know.Oh... Stay home and don't drive during this. Crowds, malls, confined spaces can cause a spell to come on, and be much more difficult to control.Have projects you have been wanting to find time to work on ? This is a perfect opportunity. And you have a medical excuse.
It IS going to be OK... better than OK.