Well its all over and done with, after I posted last night I only went to the loo 2 more times, went to bed at 1am and got up at 9am, slept straight through the night, probably cuz of lack of sleep the night before. Woke up needing to go to the loo though and feeling a little sick, but I think that was lack of food and nerves, went to the toilet again, and then my partner drove me to the hospital, got there at 10am, waited a bit then a nurse came to see me, asked all the usual questions, took blood pressure, weight etc. I told her I was very nervous and could I have a heavy sedation, I stressed this a few times, and was then sent off to try and go to the toilet again, (which I did) and then got into my gown and into another waiting area where my partner reappeard, she said it wouldnt be too long to wait, my stomach was all knotted with fear, I felt sick and shaky. On the table in front of me was a comments book which I started to read with patients comments going back to 2000, it was kind of like reading the posts here, people giving their experiences, good and bad, most people were happy and said it wasnt as bad as expected, the only complaints were about the prep and the wait, this reasured me a bit, as nearly everyone said the prep is the worst thing and I had already survived that.Got called through at 11.40 am spoke to the doctor and the guy administering the sedation and said again, I suffer from panic attacks, make sure you give me a strong dose, they said they would, anyway they put the cannula in the crook of my right elbow and put a pulse thingy on my finger, and told me to lie on my left side knees bent up, the nurse then said the oxygen levels in my blood were low, probably because of a recent chest infection, so she stuck this tube coverd in gause up my nose to give me oxygen,that hurt a bit (it still does actually) then the sedation guy did his thing, I watched it go in and waited for the woozy feelings to start but didnt feel hardly any different at all, no sleepy feeling nothing! The doctor started the procedure and I winced a bit as it was uncomfortable, I started chatting to the nurse saying I didnt feel any different and tried to ignore what was going on the other end, I remember saying to her do most people forget this afterwards and she said most but not all, it was hurting quite a bit, and the doctor was apologising and saying he was being as gentle as he could, I kept chatting to the nurse to distract myself and she was asking about my hair (its pink, purple blue and black plait extensions and is often a topic of conversation for people!) The doctor got me to lie on my back with my knees bent to reach the last part and said it would only be another five minutes, it was still very uncomfortable, but I didnt mind, it was weird, I was expecting to feel very drowsy fall asleep and wake up with it all done, instead I felt nothing, was completely lucid and chatty but didnt mind. I am thinking that the sedation must have taken away my anxiety but didnt do anything else, but as I felt no fear I didnt mind the pain at all, in fact I was quite happy throughout, it was an unusual feeling because I am so used the the terrible scared feeling that goes hand in hand with any pain I am in. The doctor said it was all over and that there were no polyps or signs of cancer, and that he had taken 6 biopsies I should get the results within 6 weeks, and I was wheeled off into recovery.In recovery I was still wide awake and trying to chat to the nurses as I was getting a bit bored, the two ladies either side of me were completely out of it, I still dont know why I wasnt, I asked the nurse I had been given much sedation she checked to notes and said 4mg of something or other it sounded like medazepan, but I cant remember she said that was a low dose though, and they didnt give me any at all of the other one which most people get. I was a bit annoyed as I had asked for it to be very heavy at least 5 times and mentioned it to the nurse, the man administering it and the doctor, and they must have ignored me, even though they promised that they would. But at the same time, I am not annoyed because although the procedure was painful it was not at all traumatic and over within half an hour, so obviously I didnt need the heavy sedation anyway. The only problems I had in recovery were that, my oxygen levels kept dropping every time I tried to sit up, the machine strted beeping and a nurse kept coming rushing over and getting me to take deep breaths she said it could be the wind pushing on my diaphragm, and to try and expel it, that was the other thing though I had barley any wind, less that I have sometimes naturally, and what was there was bubbling around higher up, and wouldnt come out, in fact now 8 hours later, I have only had a very small amount. The nusrse turned the oxygen level moniter round so I could see it and said If I could keep it above 90 for 5 minutes then she would leave me alone, if it started to drop then take deep breaths. Anyway I did what I was told and she let me sit up and took the machine away, brought me a glass of wather and 2 digestive biscuits, took the cannula out of my arm which hurt more than anything else I think, its still sore and red now especially seeing as she ripped a few hairs out!They let me get dressed gave me a bit of paper about not driving operating machinery etc after sedation, took my bracelet tags off, I walked round the corner and my partner was waiting, I held onto his arm as I felt a little dizzy, and we came home. Since then I have felt fine, cheerful eaten and drunk a few things, my partner has just bought me a chicken kebab and a can of pepsi in, I havnt been to the loo, had very very minimal pain, and cramps no worse than what I usually get, barley anything at all.I am so relieved after yesterday morning with the prep I was so scared, but after I was sick, things were much better, and today was fine, much better than I expected but in a different way, all the things I was worried about didnt happen, but some of the things I wasnt worried about did, obviously I am not out of the woods until 48 hours are up cuz of the risk of bleeding etc, but the way the procedure went I was told this was very unlikely, just have to wait for my results now. Also I have a scan of my upper organs on the 28th looking for gall bladder problems, will update everyone on my situation soon.Camille it wasnt half as bad as I had feared, I really think you should still get it done, at least then you will know if there is anything serious causing your symptoms, and if there isnt then you have peace of mind, for me the worry was the worst bit, and the relief I feel now is amazing.