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Hi Eric:I was to the doc today and the news was not good. They are at their wits end on what to do on how to control my ibs D. He is concerned that I am dehydrated. He said that I am putting out more that I am taking in. And this is also the cause for me having problems with my bi polar because I am flushing the mood stablizers out of my system before my body can use them. So my bi polar is in a tale spin for the first time in five years. I have to admit I am scared. He said I have a bladder infection and I have a vaginal infection running at the same time. He has placed me on antibiotics and the who gamit for the other thing. He wanted to place me in the hospital for the weekend and I couldn't go. I just broke down in his office. I have no one to look after my father in law and the kids. My husband is not able to get any time off and if he calls in sick any more he was warned he would be fired. So I have no choice. Bob looks at me with a broken heart and hes blaming hisself and I feel bad for that. I have emailed Mike and asked him for the help with the tapes. I did promise the doctor that I would go to bed this weekend and if I did spike a temp or if I got the chills I would go to the hospital emerg. The one good thing is that Rachel as young as she is has been a god sent with her grand father when shes home she has so much patience with him and occupies him and takes him out for a walk around the block. I still can't get any food in me and when I do it rushes out and I am either urging or I actually vomit it up. Oh joy. I am so worn out. I just wish my mother in law would get out of the hospital soon. My bigest wish is to be able to move out of the bathroom. Theres only so many times you can count the spots on the walls and the tiles. I actually have my pillow in there so I can hold on to it when things are bad. He doesn't want to do the light up at this point because I am going threw enough. I actually feel like an old dog whos ready to crawl into a cornor and die at this point. And now I am so depressed.Denise