So for the past couple of days, I've had the feeling of food being stuck up in my stomach and for days a hard stomach and gassy noises, but hard to push gas through, and just bloating. However, I've developed such a fear of food due to fearing a hard movement, that I'm losing a lot of weight, but people are complimenting the weight loss, but I'm feeling like a balloon. (It's ok though I have the weight to lose, so it's not like an emergency or something). I wasn't sure if it was constipation or some kind of kidney infection. I know those are supposed to be in your back, and I was peeing ok, not a lot but normal, but distended stomach is one of the symptoms I think.So anyway the other day, I bought some of the "bad foods" which was like spaghettios and some chocolate and then this morning I had basically a textbook BM, like no pain at all, and no diarrhea, it was truly a joy, lolol. like it was there, did what it needed to do, no compaction or anything. I still feel like there should be more in there, but I didn't eat all that much, so really there can't be.so next I have a steak lunch at a restaurant coming up and am fearful again. I truly wish we were immortal and didn't need to poop.I'm really tired of this cycle.At any rate, I have a friend at this one store I shop at, and me buying canned goods and enemas and losing weight probably isn't looking too good. I'm sure she's thinking "eating disorder". It's very frustrating.At any rate, I feel much better, but not sure if I'm totally fine yet. I've never been diagnosed with IBS, but I feel like I could post in any of the categories: constipation, diarrhea, or abdominal pain, lol. I seemed to get all those.I know I should get to a doctor but no insurance at the moment. Any of the stop gap programs are gonna be a clinic or an emergency room. So it's frustrating right now.