Hello everyone.I am going to my session of CBT today, last week was 2 hours long and my counsellor did deep relaxation with me and took me back to a few years ago and i had to tell her what was happening and how i dealt with it and how i felt and what would i do different now if i was in the same situation. I dont know what she is going to do with me today. The doctor at the mental health I see has allowed me to stay on the buspar anxiety meds for 2 more months and not come off them as she originaly said, Im still on 45mg Mirtazapine though. I am feeling so down and low, things were improving slightly, but the last 3 days I have been so uptight and down and that upsets the IBS-D making it worse and more urgent, then i get more uptight, vicious circle. Its taking a long time for me to recover, I had my breakdown in February this year, at the moment it feels like i will always be like this and it frightens me.I want to get better, but cant stop being uptight no matter how much i try. I only have 2 days left listening to mikes cds for the 2nd time around, not sure if they are helping. ?Sorry for venting, I just feel helpless, I hope my counsellor will help me.