I have been wanting to talk to someone about this problem for years now and have finally decided that a forum such as this is the best approach for now...here goes..Having had IBS for nearly 20 years on and off, I have obviously spent a great deal of time on the toilet straining, sometimes I even stick my fingers up my bottom to ease the stool out when I am badly constipated (gross I know). Anyway my question is this: when I strain (push really hard) I can feel and see a huge pink muscle/fleshy thing come out of my anus hole. I don't think it is a pile as it is not painful and is has a hole in the middle where the stool comes out. It is really gross though and often covered in mucas.Does anyone know what this might be? Have I injured myself? I have noticed this from being about 14yrs old (am 30yrs now).I am desperately wanting to have a baby but am petrified of the birth and the nurses (and even worse my husband) seeing this gross thing when I push the baby out. Can anyone give me some reasurrance or ideas?Thanksp.s i know i should ask my doctor but am way way too embarassed.