I'm just so totally fed up with this - I don't think I can stand it anymore. Why does every single event if life always have to be linked to food! Seriously what is it with that. Christmas, New Year, Easter, Mothers Day, Birthdays, holidays etc... I can just feel myself getting in a total flap because i have got so many things arranged this year - that I have to do and they all involve either sitting in a church or sitting down to eat. I just can't face it anymore. I'm seriously beginning to wonder if i need to go and get some phobia help because it is getting that bad again. Everytime I get invited to a family occassion it always feels like a huge conspiracy against me, I know rationally that it isn't, but it feels like it. I honestly feel at this moment that i need to just leave the country so that i don't ever get asked to anything ever again and I feel so bad for thinking that way. I really love my family and I wish i could be "me" again but I'm not and I'm so tired of always trying to find escape routes out of things and worrying about it for months on end. What do the rest of you do? I have been to events and tried to carry on as normal but I just can't do it anymore. I don't want to spend my whole life in a panic about things and worrying about where the nearest toilet is. I just want to crawl into a hole and stay there. Does anyone else feel like this sometimes? I'm just not feeling very positive about things at the moment and I'm sick and tired that I can't get out there and enjoy my life.