This feels like the very worst thing that could've happened. Last night at work, I was ringing through a customer and it hit. It was the most severe and scariest thing I have EVER experienced. There was no reason, my IBS was fine, just all of a sudden my heart starting pounding out of my chest, I felt all hot and shaky and worst of all I couldn't breath. As soon as the customer left I locked the door and went into the bathroom to calm down. When I looked in the mirror I could see my entire body shaking, needless to say I phoned the boss and told him I wasn't feeling well and asked if I could close up early. Thankfully there was only half an hour left and he said that would be okay. Anyways, I'm terrified. I had to work today and I couldn't go near the till. They sent me home after four hours, I told them I wasn't feeling well and that I was really dizzy which was the truth, I was dizzy from being so nervous! I'm scheduled to work tomorrow with two of my coworkers (one of them being my Mom) and then Monday by myself. I can't do it, I can't go back. Today I had to take an order over the phone and I could feel the panic starting although thankfully it didn't get out of control. This is a busy weekend where I work, and unfortunately there's only four of us who work there including myself. I've only told my sister and Mom about what happened.. I'm scared of telling anyone else, including my boyfriend in fear that he'll think I'm a nutcase. I'm so terrified and feel SO depressed about what happened. Just when I thought I had my anxiety under control it struck and in the worst way possible. I've had what I THOUGHT were panic attacks but they were nothing in comparison to this. My sister suggested I go for counselling, which I'll do.. I'll even go on anti-anxiety meds if need be but I don't know how to get out of the next two days. This is one of the worst weekends to be calling in sick and I'm scared to tell my bosses about WHY I can't go to work, I'm torn between telling them the truth or just saying I'm 'sick'. I absolutely will not tell my 2 other coworkers because I know they won't take it seriously and probably talk about me behind my back. I feel so lost.. I'm scared to even leave the house now because of this. I'm scared of having it happen to me somewhere else. Apart from my Mom and sister I didn't know anywhere else to turn but here. I don't know what I'm asking for by writing this. Just feeling desperate and scared. I don't know how or if I'll make it through the next two days. There's no one else to work on Monday because it's a holiday and I'm scared of losing my job.. but on the other hand I'm more scared of going back and having that happen again. Today I could only associate work with panic, and the more I thought about panic the more nervous I would get about having another panic attack.. it's such a vicious circle, and unfortunately I don't know how to break this one. I've been able to keep my general anxiety under control over the last few months.. so much to the point that I was planning on going on another trip this month but now I'm a wreck. I don't feel like seeing anyone or talking to anyone or going anywhere. Anyways, for anyone reading I appreciate you listening.