Dear April,I'm 26 and have DEFINITELY been in your shoes. I am some better, but there was a big space of time I was afraid to leave my house and work was nearly impossible. I'm lucky (I think) that I don't have any kids yet, that added stress just has to make it worse. People around here freak out when you speak of suicide, which is good on one hand, it means they care, but on the other hand, I have talked about it here and really just wanted some understaning, not a lecture about suicide not being a "way out." I know how you feel, there have been weeks recently (like a month ago) where I wanted to die so badly that I was starting to think about "ways" to kill myself. Obviously I'm still here and have been better the last few weeks, but I KNOW how you feel. Don't be afraid to talk about it....my husband wouldn't consider that my feelings about killing myself were real, and that just made it worse. I, of course, wouldn't have the nerve to ever go through with something like that, it would hurt my mom and my husband too much, as I'm sure it would hurt your family soooo much, but I just wanted you to know that you are NOT the only one who feels this way!! Please try to hang on and try the Caltrate thing, I REALLY DO think it helps!!!! Drink tons of water so you don't get dehydrated and I'm NOT a religious type of person, I've been so angry with God the last year, but sometimes, praying or even kind of communing with nature now that its spring time may help. I also found that doing little things for myself and no one else helps. Like buying myself some little thing just because I want it, or treating myself to a smoothie at the Juice Stop for no reason. (my husband wound't approve of spending $3.00 on a smoothe) Do little things for yourself, you have worth!!!!! Don't give up, that would be a tradgedy no only for you, but for all of us that suffer, we don't want anyone to give up.I wish you the best of luck and I will be thinking of you today.Jill