15 years later, and I am freaking out, how did it come to this... did I get some virus? Did I have an ulcer that turned into IBS. Was it treatable before it became full blown intestnal nightmare disease? Was there a time in my life, and through decisions, I should have zigged, instead of Zagged? is it caused by MAP?? (for all those of us that used to drink milk). Is it generic? Did I totally screw-up sometime in the past, which led to this? If I had not gone somewhere on vacation, could I have avoided getting some tropic disease that causes this Intestinal nightmare? I am really hating asking this over and over and over for the last 15 plus years. I have been through every part of this, all the sob stories I have been through. Every day I am ful of drugs and when I am not lying down wallowing in suffer, my mind won't let me rest, it keeps asking all the questions. When I feel well enough to do something, just to keep my mind off the bad stuff. About the only thought that helps is that is could be worse. (which is a partial lie). Too much to say, but already been said. Everyone has their story. For those that look for answers, the experienced can only say each cause is a little different, but the same thing for everyone is that this is No cure. Yes, I went through all the years of research, and started the research before the Internet had health groups. But, at least those that started searching int eh last 15 years have the Internet to look for answers, Beore then, they had to only ask doctors that had no clue and misdiagnosed badly, or look at the library, which had nothing of much value for us sufferers. But, it all comes down to: who, what, where, why, and when???? How did it come to this???Just my thoughts, and another day of this..