The good thing is that my day ended up ok and right now I am feeling well. I had yet another interview; not actually a real interview but an offering for a teaching opening. Ok, there I went. Nobody was going to ask me anything other than "Do you accept?". Oh, if there were enough opening for the people that went. I got so anxious. I could not understand why. Last Tuesday I was actually interviewed and had to sit about two hours waiting and receiving an orientation, etc. and I was totally cool with it. I even started a conversation with a woman (totally unheard of me). And today that I was just supossed to be a vegetable and agree or disagree I felt like a thousand tiny ants were going up and down my whole body (not just my tummy) making me feel uncomfortable. And I must add I knew where the bathroom was, so my anxiety was not bathroom related, even though I had to use it once.I am thinking it had to do with the fact that I am totally negative about returning to the classroom. But the other job offerings are way too low for me to even consider (about a $500 difference which is too much). I know my tranquility does not have a price but my debt has to be paid. Also, I do not want to be the person that runs away from everything as a way of protection. I am just tired of that.I gave up an excellent oportunity because it envolved visiting clients. I do not want to be negative and think I could not do this type of job, but putting myself through such uncomfortable situations is not an option either. The best thing for me right now is to wait for another school and try to change my whole perspective.Maybe I find a school that suits me better in which I feel comfortable. This will take a whole lobotomy to deprogram the feelings I have right now for continuing as a teacher. I used to love my job so much... BTW, it was only one offering for three teachers that we were. And I did not want that school; I was not the first one to choose, so... At least I had good news regarding my Regular Teachers License, probably things will start to settle from now on. I worked so har for this and I cannot believe I am giving up now that I have finished, after four years teaching and studying during the evenings. Life should come with a manual.