I have a family christening coming up soon and I don't know what to do. I can't go, I just can't. Another family members christening was a nightmare for me as I had to walk for 10 minutes in the middle of nowhere to get there. I had terrible watery diarrhea and I had to sit at the front of the church for over an hour praying that I wouldn't mess myself and then have to walk back out with a church full of people watching me. I vowed after that day that I will never ever do anything I don't want to again. I will never be made to do that again because I just can't keep putting myself through that. There is only so much any human being can take and I can't take anymore of it. I have told my family tonight that I won't be going. Did they even try to understand - no. Same old reponse from the people that say they love me. That people will be offended and that I have to go. Surely if my family know about my problems and say they love me, then it shouldn't matter whether I go or not. I'm so sick of this, always having to go through this everytime there is some big family event. I really think that there is no other way than to just leave my home and move to a different area so that I won't be made to feel so guilty all the time. I'm the one trying to live with this and sometimes I just want my family to give me a cuddle and tell me that it dosen't matter and that it is ok. But they don't, even though they know what I have to go through everyday. I feel really miserable about this and worried as it is only a month away. How would the rest of you cope with this, any help with how to handle the situation would be appreciated. I'm allowed to be selfish and say no - aren't I?