I am quite new to this site and i would like to say how nice it is to find out i am not alone. I have had ibs for 15 years now and its making my life hell. I feel like no one undrestands me, i have a lovely husband but even he doesnt seem to understand what its like to live with this. He makes me feel like i am always making excuses not to do things and if i wanted i could make myself better! The doctors dont help (i am in the uk). On my last visit when i told him how bad things were especially when i had fruit & veg his response was "just eat junk food then!". I just want a "normal" life, i am about to start working again in september as a teacher assistant (i've been a stay at home mum for the last few years) and instead of looking forward to it i am dreading it as i dont know how i am going to cope if my ibs doesnt settle down. I fell i am a walking pharmacy, i am taking so many tablets! I am on peppermint, mebeverine and antidepressant tablets on prescription, and i am also taknig calcium and probaiotic (tablet form) and the occasional immodium. But my doctor doesnt want me to take the immodium, how does he expect me to get on with my everyday life without it? Am i supposed to put a nappy on when i go out? I am so sorry to go on but i feel that if i dont talk about how i am feeling i am going to go MAD!! Does anyone else feel the same?