[13659]

I've had this horrible disease for 20 years now. It started when I was 13, and I was put on Motilium and Buscopan four times a day. It helped. I was in school at the time and the only thing that I noticed was discharge from my mammary glands. No biggie.I was on this medication for 15 years when a new doctor that I was going to decided to get me off of the meds. She had sent me to a specialist who deemed them unnecessary. So I was slowly weened off. I got sick within 6 months. But I was still eating what I wanted. I wasn't suffering all that much, except maybe once or twice a year when my IBS would flare. No biggie.For the past eight months I've been living in sheer hell. The IBS came back from stress combined with antibiotics from a lung infection. It hasn't really gone away since. I've been flaring off and on (mostly on) since then. I've had to change the way I eat, eating low fat food and eliminating everything I once loved. I've lost 38 pounds and am finding that as each flare comes and goes, there's more that I can't eat.I've started yet another flare and am getting to the end of my rope. I've been contemplating suicide, something I've not done in a very long time. I've had green stools, which has scared me, and I've had blood, which has scared me even more. Food that once stayed in, is now coming out right after it goes in. I don't know what to do any more. Please, if anyone has any info, or any kind words, don't hesitate to send it my way. I could use all the help I could get.Sparberette

 

[Kathleen M.]

Have you been back to the specialist about your recent flare.Given that you took antibiotics that seemed to set it off you need to be checked for C. difficle which causes "antibiotic associated diarrhea" It can grow when the antibiotics kill everything off and this is very treatable, but can make you very sick until it is.Anytime things get much worse you should get back with the doctor to be checked for what may be wrong.Here is a list of suicide resourses a lot of these are on-line or the links could guide you to something local. http://dmoz.org/Health/Mental_Health/Disor...Support_Groups/ Please talk to someone. If you look in your local phone directory there may be a suicide hotline in your area and they can be very helpful as well.If you want to talk to someone about how you are feeling, try www.samaritans.org.uk It is a UK based website, but they do offer support via email. Its totally confidential and can be used via telephone also.This is a world wide help and support website- http://www.befrienders.org/

 

[15267]

don't give up hope, have you tried taking immodium daily to help with the D? I know that I eat one of my flare up foods that I will be in the RR within 5 min after eating it, it is weird, don't let this disease get the best of you