I've had this horrible disease for 20 years now. It started when I was 13, and I was put on Motilium and Buscopan four times a day. It helped. I was in school at the time and the only thing that I noticed was discharge from my mammary glands. No biggie.I was on this medication for 15 years when a new doctor that I was going to decided to get me off of the meds. She had sent me to a specialist who deemed them unnecessary. So I was slowly weened off. I got sick within 6 months. But I was still eating what I wanted. I wasn't suffering all that much, except maybe once or twice a year when my IBS would flare. No biggie.For the past eight months I've been living in sheer hell. The IBS came back from stress combined with antibiotics from a lung infection. It hasn't really gone away since. I've been flaring off and on (mostly on) since then. I've had to change the way I eat, eating low fat food and eliminating everything I once loved. I've lost 38 pounds and am finding that as each flare comes and goes, there's more that I can't eat.I've started yet another flare and am getting to the end of my rope. I've been contemplating suicide, something I've not done in a very long time. I've had green stools, which has scared me, and I've had blood, which has scared me even more. Food that once stayed in, is now coming out right after it goes in. I don't know what to do any more. Please, if anyone has any info, or any kind words, don't hesitate to send it my way. I could use all the help I could get.Sparberette