I hope no one is gonna be offended by this post.I'm just so ****ing angry i have to spit it out!!I wish people would understand that my life is over. I will never be able to do things like before. Everybody thinks it's all in my head.They say you'll get over it.... NO maybe not!!maybe i will stay that way for the rest of my life. If that's how it is going to be then i don't want to live.I know that maybe i will find some relief BUT i will never be cured.I will never be the same.I will allways be scared of food..I hate partys, there everyone is eating, and they ask why aren't you eating??I hate christmas.. all that food...I hate summer... then it's to hot to wear baggy clothes, and my stomach looks awful..i'm 19 and i'm supposed to be on that age, when you do all the fun stuff.. AND I CAN'T..i'm missing everything that's funit would be so much different if i was 40 or 50 years old... right now i really don't want to live.