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For 2months, all of my symptoms were gone. I was under the impression that I was healed and could eat whatever I wanted. My ex boyfriend moved out, I was pretty happy, my new relationship is healthy, I'm going to school and I have a job. Everthing was Ok. Until yesterday. A flare up. While my new boyfriend of 2months was at home. I thought I was done with this thing! I can't have a flare up in december! It's holidays. I have to see my family, I have exams at school. I have a one week vacation too!. It just can't happen.I had a coloscopy a while back and they didn't find anything unusual. I had bloodtest. It's not coeliac disease. It's not Crohn. It's IBS. It use to alternate between C and D. But now it's just D. As soon as I wake up, I have to go to the bathroom. I never have to go in the morning usually! What the hell? Can symptoms change between flare ups? I know what I can and cannot eat but I've enough. I want to eat what I want when I want like normal people. I don't want to keep myself for eating what I like. I don't want to be isolated because I always have to go to the bathroom. I tried several medication but it didn't help either. I wanna be able to take a trip, or be in a bus for more than 10minutes. I don't wanna have to share my rectal life with my lover. I don't want to have to wonder if I can go to classes for my finals or if I'll be sick. I find it hard to belive that there are some of us here that are cured. Dammit, why can't I be cured huh??It feels like a fight everyday. I feel like giving up too.