I just read your thread and I am right there at the edge of the mountain and finally ready to do exactly what you do. When I go out I have that same attitude and I am usually okay. You are great and when you put it in to prospective. Why should we, IBS people, be worried to the point of insanity because we are so afraid of messing on ourselves in public. I went out to the market and thought RIGHT THERE at the cash register. rushed out with baby in hand and then slowed myself and said that if I **** on myself right now so what! It lifted off of me light a wave of relief. I was thinking that I may take something stronger than Librax but I feel it is good enough and that maybe I should work on not caring.Maybe I am too vain. my package looks pretty good. Most think that I am a model but if they really knew how I feel all of the time they would not believe it!!