This is just me venting.Why oh why do i have this? Why does this seem to run my life? Why can't I get it under control? How is one supposed to live their life normaly with this? Why don't doctors know how to fix this? Why does it seem like I have to navigate this? And after 10 years, why can't I figure it out? Manage it? I feel like I'm still waiting to find what will fix it, whether it be a precription, a supplement, a way of eating, etc. And the damage this has done to me psychologically...having this thing which is so unpredictable, that will ruin your day when you don't even know why? How is one supposed to put up with this? And why, why, why do we have to? I dream of a time when I wake up in the morning and don't spend every waking hour thinking about what I can/cannot eat, where the toilet is, when I can use it, and wondering if I'll be bathroom-bound, or free to do the things I need to do that day.