Hi, Lilly. I do know bit of what you're talking about because IBS symptoms and depression and anxiety about my IBS symptoms took a bit of a toll on myself and on my marriage a few years ago. For me, the main symptoms were chronic abdominal pain and soreness, constipation and colon spasms that would seem to come out of nowhere. I would spend a lot of time worrying if I would have a painful spasm whenever we left the house to do some fun activity, thus I would not have fun and bring my husband down in the process. Many nights I would not let him near me in bed because my tummy was sore and tender and painful. Eventually, I even quit my job becuase I was sick so often. All of that led me to think that I was a terrible wife, depriving my husband of happiness and becoming a financial strain on him. The thing is, you have to be honest with yourself about how your health (physical and mental) is affecting your quality of life. Then you have to be able to openly express to your husband your concerns and your fears about your health and how it is affecting you and your marriage. Hopefully, he will be as understanding and patient and my husband was and still is.That's the hard part. After that, find yourself a good gastroenterologist who can help you treat your IBS symptoms more succesfully. Also, if you think it will help you, start talking to a psychologist about your issues with your health and your self-esteem and the depression you are experiencing with this whole situation. I did both of these things, and my health and my feelings about my life and my marriage have greatly improved.I hope things work out for you, and I wish you all the best.