hi there, i'm a 22 year old female. i have just finished uni and have started a new job, life should be going really great. However everyday is a constant struggle for me but i keep a brave face and keep trundling along. I'm at work right now and have a really bad pain on the left side, from the front right through to my back, actually its all down my left side. Most days i feel like this. i,ve been suffering with ibs for 5/6 years now. at first i would just get episodes now and then , but over the last 2/3 years i am hurting every day. not just physically. emotionally i dont feel very stable because i'm just tired of having to deal with it everyday. And the worst thing in the world it always feels like i am so alone. i used to ring my mum or sister up if i was having a bad day now i feel it just goes in one ear and out of the other. So most days i just keep it all to myself. sometimes it just gets too much and i dont know what to do.....i've been for an endeoscopy and a colonoscopy and the results from the biopsy where normal. Doc just sent me home with laxatives said i must have 'sluggish bowels.' Apart from that i've been on a host of medication such as anti-spasdomics etc. Now i am seeing a chinese Dr for acupuncture and herbal treatment. i still feel rubbishy most of the time. the worst thing that happened last week my boyfriend said to me ' are you gonna get better or you always gonna be like this? what was i supposed to reply. I have to live with some hope and pray to god (if hes listening) that one day i wont feel like this. I'm trying so hard to not let IBS control my life.....but its easier said than done. Well chin up i suppose....i know people in this world are worse off than me and should be thankful for everything i have...but its hard when i have no one to talk to...well not anyone who understands.