I recently posted a topic on the IBS forum but thought maybe I should try again in the C forum, though I'm not sure I'm in the right place as I have numerous BM's per day and am certainly no truly constipated. I've already gone on about my history which is undoubtedly a factor (sorry to repeat myself for those who have already heard this) which is 9 years of anorexia with hideous bulimic episodes. Over the past few years I've been eating 'normally' (to a degree) though am still very underweight and have lately been suffering more from the binge/vomiting pattern (ironically triggered by the self digust brought on by the IBS). I cannot deny that I have psychological problems and I don't expect my IBS to ever be cured (ok, I know there is no cure, but to improve) until I've truly laid my eating disorder to rest. However even during the couple of years when I had no ED symptoms at all I still had a lot of gas, pain, alternating C and D and never feeling as though I'd emptied my bowel. I've tried the lot: hypno, nutrition, chinese meds, you name it my bank balance has suffered for it.SO the reason I'm posting here is because (and I know this is going to sound really weird but I'm desperate) I am unable to let go, the urge to go is very forceful and though I can let out a little my anus automatically tenses up and I feel like I don't know how to go and so to try and emty my bowel as much as possible I have to go endless times in the morning. All the straining and toilet going (which is ridiculous and is making me obsessive - a trait I do not need to encourage!) is causing a small amount of bleeding (nothing to worry about as the blood is bright red). My stools are also very sticky (sorry). The less I go the more gas there is, not to mention the pain (which I am getting much better at handling), I also seem to have a lot of mucous. I used to just have chronic D but now I feel C all the time (well my version of C anyway)Apologies for being so graphic and sounding obsessive, I know how irritating it must sound. I would truly appreciate any advice and to the very knid people who did respond on the iBS forum thank you and I have not ignored your suggestions but I am still stuck. Please help an utterly bonkers Midwinter maddness, I'm going a bit crazy!