I so know what you mean!! I just started Lotronex Yesterday and I had to borrow the money off my Dad and Mother-in Law for ahlf of the perscrition until I can afford the rest! I have Select Blue, they are supposed to be the best. they suck!! Someone gave me this number to an advocate that will help you get the medicine. I haven't had a chance to call yet but here is the number.1-800-722-9294, tell them that your dr proscribed it and you health insurance won't pay for it. If it is working for you, you should be able to have it so try giving them a call. Let me know how it works out for you. Good luck!!Kendra