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·i am in agonizing pain and i just need to vent i guess. i suffer from ibs (alternating)and have had hemorrhoids and anal fissures in the past. On Monday my hemorrhoids really starting bothering me, so i made an appt to see my dr. today. i fear the ibs-d portion of my disease more than the ibs-c so i think i tend to overmedicate myself with imodium and librax. i also take fibercon, caltrate, acidophilus, and probiotica. this morning when i woke up (before my dr. appt) i felt totally impacted and tried to give myself an enema.... i was so impacted that it was difficult to even get the saline in there. it helped to start clear me out but i had to use vaseline to finally get the impaction clear. as you can imagine, i was in unbearable pain, the hemorrhoids were bleeding (i probably ripped the fissure a little too). my dr. is actually pretty good... he believes IBS exists (doesn't think "it's all in my head") and seems to understand it.... today he is starting to suspect diverticulitis and is sending me to a GI to be scoped (of course it will take weeks to get an appt.)i absolutely had to have something for the pain, so he prescribed darvocet, which i have found to be less upsetting to my GI than percocet or codeine. it has taken the edge off my pain, but i am sitting here on a pillow, still in pain... thinking about how my life just sucks because of these GI problems.... my life is ruled by my bowel habits... i don't want to spend the rest of my life eating oatmeal and bananas... i was off from work today but i have to work tomorrow, and i pray the pain has subsided by then... i don't get any sick days and can't afford to lose income.i just needed to write this because i am so at the end of my rope with this thing. i am on anti-depressant meds also, btw. i just don't know what to do anymore. i just want someone or something to make me better .... it is so hopeless for me now[This message has been edited by isaac (edited 10-17-2001).]
