I moved to Hawaii when I was 18 to focus all my time and energy to become a pro surfer. I always knew I wanted to be a surfer but not living close to the ocean made it difficult to progress to a level where I could compete. While living in Hawaii, I began to notice my bathroom routine was no longer " one and done " in the mornings. This is the point in my life that I call "the begining of the end". A combination of dealing with the squirts, not owning a car, depending on public transportation quickly derailed any plans I had for living on the island and persuing my dreams. The cycle of anxiety, panic attacks and frequent bathroom visits was too much for me to deal with and I moved back to the east coast.When I returned, my parents did everthing they could for me and spent lots of coin trying to find out what was wrong with me.As far as treatment is concerned, I'll list a few that I can remember. Colonoscopy, endoscopy, CT ScanDrugs - Lots of different antidepressants, antidiarrheals, anti-inflamatory drugs, panic(klono,xanax), antispsamodics Pretty much a lot of the drugs listed on this board except Lotro, Remeron and a few others I don't recall off hand.None of these drugs worked for more than a couple of months. It seemed like my body realized it was being tricked and would always find its way back to square one.I've gone as far as eating one meal everyother day. Yeah, that didn't last too long. I had no energy and lost so much weight I looked like Skeletor.Diets - I went gluten free back in 05 which seemed to help but soon after even safe foods were having the same old effect on my bowels. The worst trigger foods = gluten, dairy, high fructose cs, coffee, fried stuff, beer ( wine and liquor in moderation seems to be ok). It seems a though anything I eat can trigger the squirts, even gf breads, gf cereals, gf cookies.....I give up, I just don't get it. In a nutshell, I haven't dropped a normal deuce in over 20 years. 21 years later, I'm married with a two years old, a nine year old stepdaughter and a wonderful wife who's a nurse.Family life is good, but work and social areas in my life leave much to be desired. I was never able to finish college and I never got the job I wanted. Like so many here, I feel as though I've had my freedom taked from me and many times I've considered ending it all. My passion for surfing kept me alive through the roughest patches of my life, and now my family is the most important of all and I cannot abandom them.This past week I decided to change my diet a little and ate mostly protein with my carbs coming from bananas, white rice, red lentels, yuca, pineapples, black beans, collard greens.No gas, no runs, no stomach discomfort or pain. This week had been a nice departure from the usual bathroom visits which felt like I was depositing lava, which btw I avoid spicey food at all costs.I'm starting to wonder if maybe I have SIBO. Just looking for some advice on books or diet.Truthfully, it's nice to get this off my chest and talk about this with people that understand. I find it difficult to talk about and for the most part try not to think about the past and how much this disease destroyed every aspect of my life.My family and a couple of close friends are aware of my problems. To everyone else, I'm just a man of mystery. I've become quite the liar and always have excuses as to why I can't go or do certain things.I also want to thank everyone that posts ideas, treatments and all their personal experiences. This board is a god send.