I understand what you are feeling, and what you are going through right now. The whole "what if" scenarios, and there are multiple ones. When I was in those situations, or rather anticipating those situations, I got so wound up just like you are feeling now. It got to the point where I was almost physically sick. I just couldn't think about it anymore. I was completely fried. I had to submit to this feeling, and I just said to myself "fine picture the worst...be in the worst". What I realized was that I had a disease called IBS...it may embarrass me...it may humiliate me...but it wasn't going to kill me. So I tried a different approach to my problem...instead of worrying about the different situations, and trying to anticipate what might happen, I tried to understand it. The best way for me to do this was to meditate, and try to understand and visualize what my body was saying to me. I tried to understand that my body needs to move in order to function...that my intestines need to move in order to function...that everthing that it does is normal...all the noises...all the movements...they are all normal...and that it would take care of itself if I let it. I focused on what a normal body was, and pictured myself (my intestines) like that. I set aside time everyday to do this...to reaffirm my thoughts and my confidence in my body to take care of itself. I visualized letting my mind allow my body to do what it needed to do in order to function normally. Doing this gave me a sense of relief and relaxation for my mind...and my body followed.Take sometime for yourself before you embark on this task. Prepare your mind and your body for it. And remember that you have the strength of everyone here on the BB to help you out. Picture us right there with you, because we are...every one of us.Race