I ain't the type of person to share my thoughts about my problems, i usually try to solve them on my own, but today is one of those days where my hope is lost. Im 18, from Toronto, Canada, and have been suffering from IBS-D for about 3 years now. It all started when i was chilling with my friends, and suddenly got a massive urge to take a dump, and there were no washrooms around so i had to get on my bike and ride like the wind to my house, but unfortunately didnt make it. Ever since then I have had a constant fear of not making it to the washroom and embarrassing my self.My main issue is the mornings, oh god how i hate the mornings. Every morning i gotta go to the washroom like 3-5 times in one hour, but i take some immodium and im usually good for the rest of the day. But i don't feel like im in 'good health'. IBS has caused me to have mild anxiety, no intimate relationships, HORRIBLE school attendance/marks, and basically depression.(not happy 7/10 days) I try so hard to be strong and power thru the day and i think i have done a fairly good job for these 3 years, but lately its been hard. I still have a large number of friends, but they have no idea of my issue and i have to put on a mask and lie about many things. I believe my problem is more mental than physical, but then theres days when i think its more physical than mental. Some days I wake up feeling fine, and I say to myself 'I dont have stomach problems, everything will be alright' and i try not to think about it and it works. Like when i go to work im perfectly fine most of the time because im constantly busy and have no time to think about my stomach. But then there are those days or even a span of weeks when it gets pretty bad(like lately) and i loose hope and dont want to do anything but stay in my house. Stress is a big key for me, ive been wanting to go out with this girl from work and im pretty sure she likes me(got her number), but she likes this other guy from work too, so its an awkward and stressful situation of who's she gunna pick, so in return my bowels have been acting up today. I hope someone understands me and my problems, because no one in my life really does. I feel some relief from my chest just from typing this, because i have never said this to anyone before. I have faith that one day this sh*t will go away, just gotta keep moving on. I sympathize for everyone who has IBS, it's a pain in the ass to deal with.Sorry for the bad grammar/jumping topics, im just writing what im thinking.