well i came home yesterday and got ready for my doctors appointment...assuming my mother was going to come with me i called her cell cause she wasnt home. well my mom apparently wasnt coming with me and she told me to go on the internet to find directions. well i know you dont all know me personally but my mom always goes to my doc appointments and i am horrble with directions. she got home before i had to leave and i was mad. i thought she would support me and help me out with all this. well i gave her a cold shoulder and she yelled at me asking why i was so short with her. i cant believe she didnt know the answer to that one. well them i went to look for my insurance card. and apparently my mom misplaced it and said i must have lost it. but i know i gave it to her. so i called the doc and told them and asked if i should still come. they said yes. so i went of looking for it and of course i got lost. finnaly i found my way back home and went to a friends house. i was crying she me and her went out looking for it but by then i was 30 min late. well i didnt end up finding it so i didnt go. i am so upset. i have been waiting for this appointment for so long. i just want someone to help me. i went home and my mom didnt even ask me about the appointment. she still doesnt know i didnt make it there. she just seems to not even care. this really upsets me. this isnt the first time either. one day i had a panic attack and i called for her but she just yelled at me and told me to stop. things seem to just keep piling up on me. i am transferring colleges this year and im going into an art field so i need a portfolio but i dont have any work to show...my coach refusing to give me the 100 dollars i gave her for a trip that i decided not to go on...i need to get my car inspected and get an oil change but i dont have enough money...things just keep going and going...not to mention worry about ibs 24/7. sorry im blabbing i just thought it would be good to vent. if youve kept reading for this long...thanks a lot. im sure ill get through it somehow ...ive made it this far havent i!!