I have read this post a couple of times and at first it didnt mean anything. However, after reading it again, I realise that I am exactly like that with or without the BMs.I am a director of a company, but mostly I think in my mind that I am like the office junior and worry constantly about what people think of me. It is very disturbing, but I know that deep down I am much better than this and I am very capable, but at the moment it is just not happening.