It always makes me feel just a little bit better knowing I am not alone out there! In the past few years I have developed a huge anxiety to public restrooms! It's not the cleanliness either, it's the privacy! I only want to use a private restroom, where I can sit in peace and have an attack. Not worry about someone beside you listening or smelling what is going on. I actually quit my last job, because there was only one restroom with 2 stalls. I got so sick with anxiety wondering what if I went and someone came in! It makes my heart race just thinking about it. Along with that I didn't make it to my house when I got an attack once. I was five minutes from my house! Now that I know that I sometimes I just can't hold it, this leads to more anxiety. Sometimes I can't relax, because that time I really tried to talk to myself to feel okay, "It's going to be okay, relax, your going to make it" and poof I didn't. I am so scared to take prescription meds, I barely take ibuprofen. I only take imodium. So I totally understand the anxiety from having D, which will then lead to D, or vica-versa. It really is a sick cycle. I just have to add one more thing. My boyfriend and I were talking last night after watching a movie. He said when he was a wrestler in high school all the wrestlers would have D at the same time after taking laxatives to lose weight. They needed someone to talk to, since they would go for a while. I was shocked, I could never go in front of other girls! I can't even think of it. One time I got really sick, and when I was washing my hands, some girl actually looked me up and down and then continued to glare at me! Is she so perfect?