I was suppose to be going on a hen weekend to Spain today with my good friends. After roughly a month of a bad flare up of IBS I have decided not to go.I feel so guilty, depressed and embarressed. I have wasted over Â£400 pounds on it and am just praying my travel insurance will cover it.Although the money isnt really the issue I was trying so hard up to last night to ignore my pain, I even had my bag packed, legs waxed and money exchanged.I am so upset. I know that a heavy weekend of drinking and eating in the blazing heat would not of done me any good at this present time. I used to love weekends such as this and feel awful because I am jealous of my friends. I feel like an old lady and I'm only 24. I made such an effort to be positive and feel I have really let myself down and forgive me for saying but feel like such a weak person.