Sorry to be a bother-just a little PETRIFIED

Hi KarlyWell for me, work helps me not think about my IBS and I tend to have the 'better'days when I am at work ! But going back to work and starting a new job is always tough on anyone and the first few weeks you always feel like quitting, so if you do decide to go back, give yourself a some breathing space to settle in before thinking 'its not working !'I know what you mean about dreading going backwards - I have been seeing a therapist for a while now and that is my biggest fear now I feel 'mentally' well.......We are going to have bad days and if we can accept them for what they are, somehow they don't seem so bad....... maybe ?anyway, I think its worth giving it a try and I'll have a bet that it 'helps' more than makes it worse !!!!!try and pick a job that interests you, does not have to be rocket science at NASA, just something you would enjoy !not sure if this has helped but I wish you all the luck in the world !p.s. the bet is a pint of guiness at my local pub ! ------------------Worry never robs tomorrow of it's sorrow; it only saps today of it's strength"

Karly - how about two p/t jobs that would give you a break of a couple of hours in between? That's what I do. In between I go home and relax for about 2 hours. But I've never been a 9 to 5 type person. Also, as someone else mentioned, get a job that interests you. My new p/t job is in a hosp and I find the atmosphere very stimulating (no, not bowel type of stimulating ). Of course, I don't work both jobs every day, but between the 2 they average out to almost 40 hrs. per week. And with the hosp job, I have full benefits for 20 hrs per week. My husband carries the insurance but the hosp insurance is much better so we will go on that once my probation period is up. So, if insurance is going to be a consideration, you might have to be f/t at one job vs. 2 p/t jobs unless you're lucky like me.

Hi Karly!!!How are you doing? I have been trying to email you several times but just keep getting it back. I thought you had left or something! Anyway, it's good to know that you are still around and NO we are not tired from hearing from you! Don't feel that way. That's what this BB is all about-people helping each other out! I come here all the time for advice and get very good advice and don't worry what other people think, because they are here for the same thing-advice and support!I have to admit, if I was on disability, I would have a hard time getting back to work to. Think positive Karly. You are a great person and you could do it. Find something part-time for now and then gradually graduate to something full-time and that you think that you could handle. You had a long walk and a long road that you've traveled and this is just the beginning of your recovery stage. I have to work now, because if I sit at home and think about it, it's worse for me! I find that my IBS acts up more when I'm at work than when I'm at home. Go figure that one! For a while before I got a job actually working somewhere, for 4 mths. I had a newspaper delievery route for 250 houses. I was in charge of billing my customers, and in charge of all of the complaints. I did this from home and it was wonderful, being my own boss. Then I felt like I was ready to move on and went to school part time and worked in retail part-time to help pay for school and bills that were piling up at home. I'm still seeing my counselor and taking my med for anxiety and just last week my family practice doctor wanted to give me something for depression, but I feel like I'm over that stage and don't need it. But maybe I'm just in denial!Karly, talk to your counselor about you going out to work. You sound like you are ready to! Email me sometime! I still have your first email that you sent to me. Best wishes to you and try to do something from home first. Take care of yourself, Karly.Love and Light to you today,Brandi