l'm a new member. l'm male, 40, and have been having IBS symptoms non-stop (except an occasional break) for 15 years. my first brief encounter with IBS was when l was in college, on my parents insurance, so when l graduated, my insurance company made sure not to cover IBS. so even though l've never gone a day in my life without insurance coverage, l have no coverage for my IBS. my doctor says l'm in the worst 2% of IBS sufferers--l've got it all--constipation, diarrhea (and now, thanks to the diarrhea, hemorrhoids), pain, cramping, bloating, nausea, stabbing pains, belching, rock hard stools that make me feel like l'm giving birth...basically, anything that can go wrong with your digestive system goes wrong with mine. and l can't afford to see a doctor, b/c l can't work (and my insurance problems). l'm ruining my wife's life, my family (parents and sisters) are tired of me being down all the time and just want me to ''accept it'' and get on with life--as if that's possible. l now have mental problems, which, who know what came first, the chicken or the egg, but l was a pretty darn happy person until this hit me, and even for the first 5-10 years kept a stiff upper lip, but with the depression weighing on me now, its like, if my stomach is feeling okay, the depression and feeling of worthlessness get to me. and if my stomach's bothering me, well, no need to go into details about how l feel, and the depression hits 10 fold. my life is completely and utterly worthless and pointless--my existence is one of pain and suffering--mental and physical. l just can't deal anymore, and don't really see any point, since no medications or changes to diet have ever helped. l have no reason to think that this is ever going to change--l can be miserable and stressed and my stomach can feel fine, l can be out walking my dogs and my stomach will force me to lay down on the side of the road waiting for the pain to pass. in short, l'm nothing but a burden, and an unhappy one at that. have any of you been to this point and made it past? anyone have any suggestions before l just end this miserable excuse for a life? and this isn't just some passing fancy in the midst of a depressive period--l've been feeling this way and trying to find reasons not to put myself out of my misery and everyone else's for years, and just can't seem to rationalize it all anymore. any thoughts?