Hey all,I got a totally bizarre question. I've noticed that I'm often able to perfectly hold up my BM during the day. Usually, it only gets urgent to a point where I really need to go either during lunch pause or when I get home.I mean it's really like that. I can have a feeling of having a full colon for hours and hours but it's usually only when I get home after work that I really feel the need to go. Don't get me wrong, if I feel that "full feeling" during the day and I go to the bathroom, I'll usually have a BM but I can usually just live with the full feeling without going too.It's like my mind knows that during the day, in the bus, when I'm walking around or when I'm in the store or at work, it's a bad moment to be sending the signal. But when I get home it's like my mind knows "ok, you can go now, send the signal" and there I am, having the need to go to a point where holding it up becomes much harder.It's really like my mind knows when it's a good moment to send the signal for going to the bathroom or not.Does this make any sense? Does the mind subconciously "know" when it's a good moment to go or not?I'm asking because my IBS is mainly psychological. I'm in a vicious circle: I feel the symptoms, they annoy me, I get scared that they're gonna start dominating my life and disrupt it more and more and this fear of course, sustains the symptoms. But since it's psychological, it seems the mind plays a big role in how and when you get symptoms right?Secondly, I'm soon going to start Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. I've tried Hypnotherapy, probiotics, antispasmodics, dietary changes and nothing seems to have a lot of effect. However, people say that for persistent cases such as mine, where the problem is purely psychological and not even caused by an external factor any more, CBT is the answer. I'm in that vicious circle, I realize that. I'm my own enemy in this and even though I KNOW I cause the symptoms myself, I just can't make the fear and anxiousness about my symptoms "go away" like that. It's stronger than me.Do you think CBT would be of any use to me? The psych also said she might give me antidepressants. Are these effectice in my type of fear (the fear of seeing the symptoms take over my life)?And last but not least, somewhat related, I sometimes have "wet farts". These are annoying and give you such an uneasy feeling. Are these normal and if so, does this mean my IBS is worsening or is it just something that'll go away?